i am now listening to smashing pumpkins - Mellon Collie and The Infinite Sadness. their songs bring me back to my schooldays.
almost six months now that i always remember my past, i dont know why ... perhaps at the moment i feel that i may not been able to keep up with life, can not deal with it and pass it. i dont want to move forward. i want to be in yesterday - a situation that i can not control from my current position.
i cannot control the future, so afraid to face the unkown...
am i a looser?
